Enki had been about to laugh incredulously, because yeah, of course he'd do something like that if there was no real 'harm' in it--- but then Enki remembered Suzaku's earlier reactions and that there had been some sort of basic misunderstanding somewhere and barely managed to hold it back, stifling it into something of a muffled chortle-snort.
"Er. That's---" Enki coughed and was relieved Shōryū wasn't present. He'd be no help, and be all 'this is your own fault'. He'd never had to actually explain or even justify his and Shōryū's relationship and behaviour.
Enki really had no idea how to go about this. So. Start at the beginning?
"I knew the first time I saw him that he'd be the King of En. That he'd be the one to destroy En. Because that's what kings do," Enki paused to glance at Suzaku, then looked out over the room again, kicking his legs.
"An' then he went and was an idiot for thirty years, and I knew he was an idiot, and even if En was getting better I knew something would happen..." Enki sighed and transferred his gaze to the floor.
"A rebellion. An' you know what the idiot goes and does? Manage to stifle that rebellion with only one death... Atsuyu had an army of over seven thousand... But only Atsuyu died." Enki's voice was quiet, and while Atsuyu's death had been horrible and there must have been another way, that's not what happened.
"Three other people died... but those were my fault." Enki shivered, still remembering the noise of the red thread snapping, of Ribi... and the baby... Enki swallowd, and shook his head. "He forgave me though. He's still an idiot, but he forgave me, and then promised me a green country. A peaceful one."
Enki had no idea where all that had come from, or if this would just make Suzaku even more confused, but he could have seen no other way to explain... well. Anything, in any other way.
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"Er. That's---" Enki coughed and was relieved Shōryū wasn't present. He'd be no help, and be all 'this is your own fault'. He'd never had to actually explain or even justify his and Shōryū's relationship and behaviour.
Enki really had no idea how to go about this. So. Start at the beginning?
"I knew the first time I saw him that he'd be the King of En. That he'd be the one to destroy En. Because that's what kings do," Enki paused to glance at Suzaku, then looked out over the room again, kicking his legs.
"An' then he went and was an idiot for thirty years, and I knew he was an idiot, and even if En was getting better I knew something would happen..." Enki sighed and transferred his gaze to the floor.
"A rebellion. An' you know what the idiot goes and does? Manage to stifle that rebellion with only one death... Atsuyu had an army of over seven thousand... But only Atsuyu died." Enki's voice was quiet, and while Atsuyu's death had been horrible and there must have been another way, that's not what happened.
"Three other people died... but those were my fault." Enki shivered, still remembering the noise of the red thread snapping, of Ribi... and the baby... Enki swallowd, and shook his head.
"He forgave me though. He's still an idiot, but he forgave me, and then promised me a green country. A peaceful one."
Enki had no idea where all that had come from, or if this would just make Suzaku even more confused, but he could have seen no other way to explain... well. Anything, in any other way.